Peace

I thought you might be her. I thought that my dreams would finally come true. I thought that we could be together and this night would finally end. But you can’t be her. I can never have you. So many dreams, broken. All my hopes have been betrayed. I’ve hungered so much for you, planned so much, thought so much, worried so much. There was chaos in my mind, but, now, it’s all gone. And the funny thing is, it’s o.k. Words cannot express how free I feel. I have wings, I’m so light. And all I can think about is how much I am going to enjoy being friends with you. This was one of the most stressful weeks of my life. And one of the best. And now I can sleep peacefully, and wake carefree. I’m enjoying life for the first time in years. How many times must I say it for it to finally sink in? Friendship over Love. Friend over Lover. The blazing fire burns out quickly, but the hot embers smolder still. As much as I was devoted to being a good boyfriend, I’m so much more devoted to being a good friend. I will never betray you. I want our friendship to last forever. I feel like I’ve finally found where I belong, like finally I can have peace.