Why Am I

Why am I like dis? Who am I, where did I come from? I ma demon. I tried ta live right an fo awhile I was beta. I felt so gud but now I'm worse. I searched my soul and found devils an skeletons, bloody dreams an evil desires, a fountain of hate and an ocean of anger. I no longer lie to myself an so I feel my anger and my hate burn an there is nothing to stop it. I no longer care wat people think of me but with boldness came shamelessness. My urges are stronger now an I can do nothing to stop them. I want to let in my Lord to change me but I don't kno how. I tried to Chain up my soul until my God made me like him but New G an the Wolves are fighting stronger. I don't know how to stop them.